Romance Patrol's #1 stud (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} steve985) wrote,@ 2006-09-19 16:28:00 |
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Like a parasite
Sitting here at work, im bored. The phones are not ringing. I have taken 2 calls in the past 2 hours. In the meantime i have been shopping. I was supposed to have my car checked out tomorrow, but with my new shift starting at 9:30, i had a chance to take it in today. Of course the dude tried to upsell me on the brakes, but everything else checked out okay. That means I am going to come down to NH this weekend. If you havent fucked me over in the past month, and would like to catch up on current events, gimme a call and we will go to tuesdays. I think I am going to canada again next weekend, but i havent decided. Taking a bus there is mad cheap, and its only like an hour to montreal. I still have to buy gifts for my sister's birfday, and i owe my dad a ton of money, but im finally good for it. I need to buy a real bed, cause i have been using a god forsaken air mattress for the past 4 months, and its stupid. Freaking everyone from concord is moving up here, and at first i thought it would be cool, but now that i think about it, how much do i want that? I left NH for a reason, and why would i want everyone i was sick of to move up here and turn this place into an annoying hub of sameness. Sometimes i cant help but wonder where my life is going. Jess says its only $450 for a 3 bedroom place in colorado springs. Maybe after i work here for a while and save up a bunch of money, i can run away again. I hear colorado is full of religious nuts, it should be funny. I just need to seriously figure out what i really want out of this stupid world, and take everything i possibly can. I want to know everything there is to know, but sometimes realizing the truth sucks worse than something you previously thought to be true. I am such a sane and content person, minus the frequent nosebleeds i have been getting lately, but i am sick of knowing myself so well. I have no denials about myself, I know i am a jerk, i know i hate everything, i know im fat. I have more respect for myself than anybody, and that makes it really hard to respect others.
Oh well. I guess for now i am perfectly fine with sitting around at work, playing PSP, IMing people, and updating this stupid thing. I just want a long term goal, other than be the recipient of complete bullshit from other people. I need to stand up for myself a lot more, and i need to start using my fists when people start pissing me off. I want to be that person that people never disrespect, because they know they will be injured. Sawnbitch.
I just remembered the other day that i have a car at my parents house. I am selling it. $1200 obo. 1992 honda accord, maroon, awesome. Buy it!
Sitting here at work, im bored. The phones are not ringing. I have taken 2 calls in the past 2 hours. In the meantime i have been shopping. I was supposed to have my car checked out tomorrow, but with my new shift starting at 9:30, i had a chance to take it in today. Of course the dude tried to upsell me on the brakes, but everything else checked out okay. That means I am going to come down to NH this weekend. If you havent fucked me over in the past month, and would like to catch up on current events, gimme a call and we will go to tuesdays. I think I am going to canada again next weekend, but i havent decided. Taking a bus there is mad cheap, and its only like an hour to montreal. I still have to buy gifts for my sister's birfday, and i owe my dad a ton of money, but im finally good for it. I need to buy a real bed, cause i have been using a god forsaken air mattress for the past 4 months, and its stupid. Freaking everyone from concord is moving up here, and at first i thought it would be cool, but now that i think about it, how much do i want that? I left NH for a reason, and why would i want everyone i was sick of to move up here and turn this place into an annoying hub of sameness. Sometimes i cant help but wonder where my life is going. Jess says its only $450 for a 3 bedroom place in colorado springs. Maybe after i work here for a while and save up a bunch of money, i can run away again. I hear colorado is full of religious nuts, it should be funny. I just need to seriously figure out what i really want out of this stupid world, and take everything i possibly can. I want to know everything there is to know, but sometimes realizing the truth sucks worse than something you previously thought to be true. I am such a sane and content person, minus the frequent nosebleeds i have been getting lately, but i am sick of knowing myself so well. I have no denials about myself, I know i am a jerk, i know i hate everything, i know im fat. I have more respect for myself than anybody, and that makes it really hard to respect others.
Oh well. I guess for now i am perfectly fine with sitting around at work, playing PSP, IMing people, and updating this stupid thing. I just want a long term goal, other than be the recipient of complete bullshit from other people. I need to stand up for myself a lot more, and i need to start using my fists when people start pissing me off. I want to be that person that people never disrespect, because they know they will be injured. Sawnbitch.
I just remembered the other day that i have a car at my parents house. I am selling it. $1200 obo. 1992 honda accord, maroon, awesome. Buy it!
